Martha remains in hospice surrounded by family and love. Nothing like a 4-year-old to keep love and light in the room and we have had more laughter over the last 10 days than I ever could have imagined. And somehow we keep having parties with silly hats. Who knew that was a yogic death ritual? And poems, lots of poems about life and death (the best ones always have both.) And Reiki. Thank goodness for Reiki which is so comforting to Martha. It is also the time when the emotional roller coaster of one day she feels pretty good, the next day she feels worse, settles into the space of timeless being. We can re-ground into our inherent connection during Reiki and come out the other side clear-eyed and rooted in love.
Each day I read her the memories and goodbye notes you have sent to me. We hear you are chanting and practicing on her behalf. She lies there in amazement at your love and stories. She takes it in and keeps saying over and over how lucky she is to be dying surrounded with such love. You, your prayers and your kindnesses are keeping her, and all of us, afloat on love. We feel you around us and send love and gratitude back your way.
Martha is receiving great comfort care and has been comfortable much of the time but not always. It is these moments of watching her in pain that help us to let go a bit more each time. We love her so much—we want her to have every moment of the breath that is hers to take and are willing to be with her as she dies when it is too hard for her to keep living. It is unbelievably hard to type those words, yet they are as true as anything I can write.
If you want to support her or the family in some way and didn’t see the first blog with suggestions you can see it here.
In the meantime, I will keep you updated from time to time. Blessings and love to you all.